Feb 1, 2018 yeah try wearing glasses and moving back to your old homewtown then your eye sight gets worse n worse you develop anxiety little bits of depression everyday cant find a job live on a budget and also know that once u die u will be judged by the good lord
Feb 1, 2018 yes. i was once like 10 yrs old and thought life was just easy and you just have fun and do what you want. then you grow up and realise you need a GPA 5 equivalent learning to get into university to do the job you want but one of your teachers hates you so u got a C/D mark on ur card meaning you can't get a GPA 5 so u f--- off the rest of the school year because it's now pointless. Then you have to go between random s----kicker jobs to pay bills and try save money so you can pay for half a uni degree and get the rest on government debt programs/payment schemes and then if you finish your course do another or try to look for work in an occupation that's currently flooded with people looking for the same work and you do this on repeat till you retire at like age 70
Feb 2, 2018 Being expelled, being arrested, over dosing, being shot at, taking to much acid, having a psychotic episode, having a 3 day h--- of mass anxiety paranoia and panic attacks, a friend of mine dying, seeing a dead body or 2, being put under house arrest and having my gf want a break from me at the same time, losing 3 of my best friends at once, having my head punched in by a g--- member etc
Feb 3, 2018 Sounds like most of that was self inflicted. t-t for that though I got everybody beat here. There's a reason I'm always angry
Feb 3, 2018 But as for me, I turned 27 a few months ago and it's the first time in my life I've ever felt truly...lost, I guess is the word. It's just a strange feeling being in the twilight of my 20s. Not that some magic switch is gonna change anything when I turn 30, but you start seeing people around you getting married, having kids, settling into careers, buying houses etc. and I feel like I have so much left I wanna do before I settle down.
Feb 3, 2018 Yup. And it's about to get worse april 10th. Some scary s--- will happen that day , i honestly don't know what to do...
Feb 3, 2018 Its hard to explain . Well , let's just say i will have to face my biggest fears that day . I usually just run away from them, but that day i wont be able to run away or my family gets f----- at the end . Sounds like some d--- dealing s--- but its not , its something else.
Feb 3, 2018 Having friends die really what's given me the most pain, can't even look at my grade school yearbook without tearing up...f--- the ghetto nothing good ever happens there. Lost my lifelong best friend after he battled with brain cancer, makes you wonder if this life really just a bunch of harsh lessons that we have to learn before our time is up. Idk...
Feb 3, 2018 I was sort of afraid of the same thing before I married/had a kid/got a house,. It's a scary thought making the leap into the conventional dad life; almost like youre scripting the rest of your life with one decision. But take it from me this s--- really is mind over matter. When I got married my wife and i traveled to a few places i had always wanted to visit. I went on a motorcycle road trip which was also a bucket list type thing for me. And had the most memorable spring break of my life. A year+ later, a few months after my baby boy was born we visited my late g pops old ranch in mx which he had begged me to go to for years. After buying my wife's parents house and completely renovating it, I'm now on the side making moves towards making a career out of a longtime hobby of mine and working for myself. Which is essentially a dream of mine. Idk if these seem trivial to some, but those are really things that I always looked forward to accomplishing and never really committed myself to until I "settled down". And i feel like Ive enjoyed doing them much more now than I would've before. All this to say don't let the fear of a monotone life keep you from "settling down" if it's something you feel like you're inclined to doing. You can turn it into a healthy fear if u really bout it bout it. Take ur own course, don't let the white man dictate when you should do what with your life. *gives you a nice pat on the butt* go get em, boy
Feb 3, 2018 while on the topic of dad's and life hittin you hard mine punched me in the head once. probably the hardest hit i've ever taken tbh. his fist was the size of my head and sent a shockwave through my whole body causing me to instantly fold up like a deck chair. Pretty good lesson haven't punched my sister since
