Jun 2, 2017 I don't know why I am even posting this here how ever I am just going to do so in hopes that someone f---ing can help me This past couple of months have been legitimate h--- for me, I have really really bad Anxiety that just appeared out of nowhere, I throw s---, break s---, have complete emotional break downs over nothing and honestly think I am losing all hope / sanity. Honestly not sure what to do, I feel like I'm eventually going to hurt someone around me or physically start hurting myself, the attacks last about an hour each and I am up to like three per day, nothing really specifically sets them off I just randomly outburst and explode...
Jun 2, 2017 Yea, been having it a lot lately..after not having it much for 4 years, it's back in a major way I guess because I'm stressing over bills, and my mother's health went to the hospital 3 times last month, because it felt like I was dying.. I was prescribed Ativan-- I HATE taking any kind of meds, but it's the only thing that helps right now. Sorry you're going through it-- it feels s-----y I know that.. when it happens, just take calm down, and take deep breaths..and drink some water while it's happening (if you can) IF it gets too bad, just make a trip to the doc, and tell him/her that you have major anxiety issues, and get LOW DOSE Ativan.
Jun 2, 2017 Spoiler: long read The meds they put me on was Ativan also I think, it had a completely negative effect on me. The first day I took it I had a minor dentist appointment where they just checked my teeth, I'm normally a very social person all around but I couldn't talk or stop shaking the entire time, my body was legit in a shock the entire time I was in the dentist and I almost snapped while I was in the chair because someone was touching around in my mouth. The second day was no better, I woke up and took the meds, I was shaking about an hour after I took those meds and once again was extremely quite. I have recently started talking to a girl whom is very confusing, and I feel like this might be a route to some of the issues. Like don't get me wrong she's super f---ing radical gorgeous and everything but she makes me feel almost constantly paranoid about everything. Now here's where s--- gets a bit weird, she dropped the LOVE bomb on me after only knowing her for about 2 months which is weird even though we've kinda gone out on a a lot of dates, it really confused me and caught me off guard and when she did this my body basically instantly rejected those words and I didn't respond, she got really mad about this I think because after I drove her home she didn't say bye or anything, she just walked to her house. When I finally get home she texts me saying "I can't believe you just left me hanging" or some s--- along those lines, and I just randomly f---ing snapped I threw my phone at the wall and completely broke it, threw numerous glasses that happened to be sitting on my desk at the wall breaking them also broke my door completely off the hinges, and my bathroom door, shattered the glass on my shower mirror. I all around just was going on a frenzy, ended up cutting my hand basically completely open also...
Jun 2, 2017 d--- man.. like I said I'm sorry you're going through all that, Anxiety is a b---- and it affects people differently, and certain things seem to trigger it. You may be Bi-polar also, which I go through that as well. Seems like certain things triggers yours, to the point where you wanna just smash s---..lol I used to be like that, but whenever u feel an episode coming on, just try to calm yourself for a min or two and do the breathing exercises. If the Ativan is having a negative reaction on you, ask for Xanax. There's really nothing that can be done beyond that I'm afraid, just try to be positive..and if things seem like they are getting worse..see if you can get a psychiatrist to help. I hope you can get over whatever it is you're going through, and experiencing..because I've dealt with the same s-----just stay positive, the most important key.
Jun 2, 2017 Don't know if this is any help to you but I'll share anyway. When my sister was in high school I remember she went through s--- like that. Not as much the violence but the extreme anxiety. My whole family was Home Schooled up until HS and she didn't handle the transition well. It f----- up her regular life too. She used to go out on jogs in the woods behind my house by then she got paranoid and stopped. She had a summer job at a camp but she quit because she became anti social. She had like zero friends but then she started meeting with someone and got on some meds (she tried a couple but they didn't work, eventually she found one but I am blanking on the name) and by sophomore year she was chilling and only talking with someone a couple times a month. Long story short, I think it's just about finding your way of dealing with things and getting help from a professional. This was all second hand experience so I could be totally in the wrong here but I figured I would try to help. Hope you get over this
Jun 3, 2017 I don't really have anything words of comfort but perhaps seeing a psychologist or a professional to help identify what's causing these anxiety attacks is a good idea. Good luck Gav.
Jun 3, 2017 I've had three in the past 24 hours, I honestly feel like I'm going to end up killing myself before this is all said and done and during the event of it happening I won't even know why or what caused it. It is honestly breaking my heart because I've never been like this before something just recently snapped inside of me and turned me into an all around f---ing monster.
Jun 3, 2017 That sucks man. I honestly don't know what to say, and I know for me I'm at least aware of what causes a lot of these issues with me (ASD)... so really the only thing I can think of to say is that maybe you should check yourself into a hospital and try and get some help. It could be some serious underlying issues bubbling to the surface, or it could be just a random low point that's hitting you real hard, but either way, go get some help for it m8. That's the best thing you can do in this situation.
Jun 3, 2017 I've never supported this option, but because so many people have recommended it I'll at least go and check with a therapist .. I don't like the idea of having to pay someone to listen to my problems.
Jun 3, 2017 well for one thing you aren't having anxiety attacks. Mood swings and fits of rage aren't anxiety. That's why the ativan isn't working. I would start on an anti-depressant if I were you like prozac/zoloft/lexapro/paxil
Jun 3, 2017 Prozac worked, but the prescription my doctor gave me stopped working and he wouldn't go up on the dosage in fear that I'd become dependent on it. / Secondly I do have severe anxiety, my attacks all come from an emotional response doctor has already told me most of what he things I have (long list actually makes me look like a psycho) only issue is he doesn't know where it came from because it just randomly happened at the start of 2017. Maybe I'm just all around stressed and it's causing a lot more issues.
Jun 3, 2017 What dosage of prozac were you on? it's weird that he wouldn't up the dosage. When anti-depressants stop working it's normally time to up the dosage or switch to another brand. Being dependant on SSRI's is kind of normal for people with depression or anxiety but they aren't abusable like benzos. If it was helping you before I'd def up the dosage or try another brand Also you may very well have anxiety but these fits of rage you described aren't anxiety attacks. Or they don't seem like it from how you described. An anxiety attack is when you feel intense fear and panic and can't breathe and sometimes pass out. Yours sound like some kind of mood disorder episodes. How old are you and how's your life going in general in regards to bills/work/school/finances etc?
Jun 3, 2017 No school, bills are easy paid, work is not very stressful anymore I barely work and make passive income and my money situation is once again fine. = I think the issue here is just stress all around, because I have too much down time. Maybe I need to invest more hours into actually working.
Jun 3, 2017 I was just wondering because if there's no outside circumstances giving you particular grief and it's just too much downtime as you say then all signs point to internal imbalances in your brain and that's not something you can really get over with lifestyle changes and the more you neglect it the worse it'll get. Either way I'd definitely see a psychiatrist (not a therapist)
