Dec 15, 2015 Look... I have a p--- addiction, and I not only want to come clean, I need to come clean. I want and need you all to help me. With this. At first, I thought I was normal and good, and it is. Or was. I know watching p--- at my age is normal and even healthy. However, I over did it. It has warped my mind. It has made me a pervert. I can turn anything and everything into sex, and it has got me in so much trouble as of recent. More on that later. For now, let's get into my history with p---. I remember first jack--- o-- at 11, to the strip club in GTA V. This was around late 2013, October to be exact. I didn't make p--- a habit until January or February 2014, though. I also need you all to see where I am coming from. I'm a homeschooled teenager, who stays in his house and on his laptop all day. No crap I am going to get into p---. I was watching p--- just about every day, at night. It wasn't anything hardcore or anything, in fact I always stayed on YouTube most of the time. I did venture into a few other p--- sites, but it was still nothing too hard. Anyway, on to April 2014. This was the first time I got caught watching p---, by my father. I actually stopped watching it, but for only for a few days. I went back to watching it very fast. Now, to July 12, 2014. I got caught a second time, and this time there actually was some consequence. The consequence didn't last long though, and I immediately went back to watching p--- after a few days, once again. The third and final time was in November of 2014. This time I actually asked what was so wrong with watching p---, and my dad explained it. I remember him saying it makes you a molester, and impotent. That still did not stop me. I kept watching it anyway, just like before. Eventually, I got into harder stuff, like facesitting. This actually happened around this year, if I had to pinpoint it I'd probably say March - July. I'm not completely sure to be completely honest. Anyway, my addiction became stronger. Not only did I get into harder stuff, but I also started to watch it more and more. Sometimes I'd watch p--- more than twice a day. I can recall my d-ck ending feeling sore from fapping so much and then when I came nothing came out. Yes, that much. So... I'm going to fast forward some months too... August of this year. I'm taken out of K12 and put in a public school around my area. I am pretty much a pervert at this point. I'm around girls too, which wasn't very common. There are not a lot of kids in my neighborhood. So yes, there are a lot of girls at my school, and a lot of them are pretty and I just want all of them... But none want me. So... Let's skip too... This month. Everyone knows me. Even people who I don't even know in my school know me. People know I'm weird, that I'm a pervert, that I watch p---. I didn't even make it a secret. One time I was in music class, there was a substitute. We were watching Like Mike (our teacher always shows up movies. We've seen Frozen, Annie, The Sound Of Music, The King And I, and Let It Shine) and there were people around me asking questions about p---. One person asked do I think about anyone in my class. Another asked me do I get lube or anything when I fap. Plus I make a lot of dirty jokes too. One time in language arts class one student was pulling on those strings that blinds have to pull them up and down. He says "this thing is long". Me, in an attempt to be funny, says "I know something that's long". I get a couple of responses, then my teacher asks what did I say. I tried to cover it up by saying that I was talking about my pencil, but it didn't work. He stares at me with annoyed look on his face for a minute, before he turns his attention to some other students. Yeah, that shows how dirty I am, but not as much as these next stories. There is this girl I like. The only reason I like her is shallow as heck (she has large boobs), but what I did to her is creepy. So the girl got in a fight, and her hair got ripped off from her hair. Someone threw the hair away, and I wait to sneak and get it out the trash, then put it in my pocket. I could have gotten away with it, had I not showed off the hair in my math class. My teacher is shocked, two students come near me and one takes the hair out my pocket, then throws it away and STEPS ON THE TRASH, just to make sure I don't get it. One person even says I'm a r--ist. The next incident also occurs in my math class. Long story short, I touch the girl's hair, she yells at me, and goes accross the room. I got talked with and everything, and I got a mentor, so things weren't too bad. The third thing happened yesterday. I have a free period, where I have no work in math. I take my phone out, and start taking pictures. No one notices me, until one girl does and yells at me. I had gotten like 20 pictures at point, and could have got away with it. But, like an idiot, I decided to show off the pictures. My math teacher asks to see my phone, and tells me to put it up. The girl asks to see my phone also, just to delete the pictures. She gets caught by the teacher, and nearly gets my phone taken away. She saw all the pictures I took of her. She also saw that I saved her Kik pictures, too. She pretty much deleted EVERYTHING of her off my phone, except a few pictures we had took together, a while back. I embarrassed myself with this girl I shallowly liked, three times. Today, I f----- up. I give my mentor a whole bunch of questions. Stuff like "Do you think I have autism" and "Do you think I'm a pervert". He notices one question, "Do you think it's weird I saved multiple girls Kik pictures". I guess he shows it to the school conselor. 6th Period, Social Studies. I get called to the counselors office to have a talk. They talk to me about how it is wrong to take pictures and stuff, and I deleted all the pictures I had of anyone today. Apparently charges could be pressed on me, because what I did was illegal. The story ends here, because this is where it all ends. For now. Who knows what will happen tomorrow. All that I know is that I am not going to f--- with anyone. Not any slutty hoes, not any ghetto n----s. My dad specifically told me that I am going to school to learn, not to get a hoe. He was very pissed at me today, and worried charges would get pressed on me. So... This is what p--- has done to me. I liked it. It made me feel good and relieved my stressed, but also made me a pervert. It made me do stuff like collect hair and save Kik pictures. Sure, I made myself do that, but it was really p--- the influenced me. p--- made me want a girlfriend. p--- made me who I am today, and I don't want to be that anymore. I have p--- addiction. I am a pervert. I need both watching p---/being a pervert to stop. I want them to stop. They WILL stop, but I can't do this alone. I need help, and I'm asking you all for that help. If you made it this far, thank you very much for reading. Note: I can actually stop watching p---, but only for 2 days. On the 3rd day I have to watch it - I can't help myself. I get fast heartbeats and have an anxious feeling when I stop watching p--- for those two days, too. I want to be able to make it to that 4th day, and keep going after that. I hope you guys can help me do that.
Dec 15, 2015 You just gotta work on your self control. I was perverted when I was 13 too, but I kept that s--- lowkey until I had it under control. Just think how many babies you're killing.
Dec 15, 2015 Testosterone is strongest to the body during this time in life, so anything on 2 legs or 4 if you're freaky, is fair game.
Dec 15, 2015 At least you guys had access to internet p--- through puberty, I used to have to rub one out to s--- like Britney Spears and Jennifer Lopez music video's
