May 17, 2015

Just wanted to vent a little bit, cause over the past 4-5 months my life sort of hit the fan.

Back in January I got fed up being b---- boy for my bosses and quit my old job in a huff, and I left my slobby roommates to come up to live with my dad for a bit. Things didn't go as planned though cause his wife's sort of a crazy b---- and we got into it and I got kicked out. There was still 2 feets of snow on the ground at the time too and I was like 2 seconds from catching something like hypothermia or frostbite over the next week several times cause the thing is, I don't have a license or a car and had nowhere to go. I'd been right about to release my EP that I'd spent months working on and suddenly that happened. I was homeless.

I had to delay everything, and try and build myself a new life as quick as I could to get myself out of living in a f---ing shelter. Took me a few weeks and some help from a few people around here, but I got into an efficiency apartment (which blows) and got hired on at a coffee shop in a mall a couple miles away. I finally managed to release my EP and relax a bit and started to pay rent and all that s---. I met some friends, and things looked like they were gonna turn around... And then got used by an ex.

He prayed on my feelings for him and used me to move away from the area he was living in and then immediately dumped me when he got here. Had a hard time doing it, but I kicked his lying a--- out. After that, I figured I'd still go through with my plan to move closer to that coffee shop job, but before I could even look for new apartments in the area I realized I had to quit that job. One of the ladies that worked there was an insufferable c----, and she treated me liked a child, or a lost puppy that didn't know what the f--- to ever do. She tried to delegate my every move to me like I needed my hand held, and was incredibly condescending to me, even in front of customers, and I got fed up with the s---. But to top it all off, my actual boss was never there to see it, so I didn't feel like I could or say anything about it without just starting something, and that the same time she was also dropping my hours down because her business wasn't going so well. And then to top that off even more her checks bounced too. So I put in my two weeks, and then was promptly fired two days later by the one f---ing b----. Ugh. Luckily I had a new job and it was all good for me $ wise but I was basically broke until I finally got paid almost 3 weeks later.

I've been working on getting a new place and trying to date again but everything keeps falling apart on me lately. No one around here is really dateable, cause the town's a bunch of drug addicts/alcoholics/homophobic white trash. My ex contacted me and threated to take me to court over kicking him out and that about sent me into a panic attack at work the day it happened. Literally every single place around here turned me down before I even applied to move in, so I'm now stuck in this 1 room, kitchenless, bug infested shithole. This town is deadend career wise, with basically nothing going on ever and no jobs that pay above minimum wage. I tried looking at college but now I don't have the money for it, and I'd still have to be in a different city before I'd find a job in my field.

And the best part is, I've started to notice symptoms that point to diabetes now, and it's effecting me at work. I don't have the energy to do really anything anymore, and no matter what I eat, I'm shaky and feel like I'm either drunk or about to pass out half the time. Oh, and I have none of my insurance information from my parents yet and no money to go to the doctor right now.

Fml

 

May 17, 2015

@Cyreides if you ever need somebody to talk to, I'm here

Keep your head up

 

May 17, 2015

Go super vegan and healthy right now to reverse your diabetes.

Stop worrying about crazy people who hurt you.

Use indeed.com to find a new job.

 

May 17, 2015

d---

 

May 17, 2015

d---, the way I see things, life throws everything at you all of a sudden for some reason. Just keep yo head up through all this bs, the heavier the rain, the bigger the rainbow. You need to talk to anyone, we all here supporting you. Take care of you! And take things one day at a time.

 

May 17, 2015

Sorry to hear that man. Keep your head up and remember there's always a light at the end of a tunnel.

If you need something or just need a chat I'm a PM away

 

May 17, 2015

One is Kendrick Lamar's album the other is Michael Jordan's

 

May 17, 2015

had a rough month too if s--- with my sister happend if you need to talk feel free to hit me up fam at anytime

 

May 17, 2015

d---, wasn't expecting so many replies or so quickly. Thanks for the sympathies guys, I appreciate it.

nah, idc. I've said it a few times on here already when it's come up, I'm gay. It's w.e haha

 

May 17, 2015

Props for posting this @Cyreides and constantly posting during this hard time bruh.
Even though I don't know you at all, I feel quite sorry for what you're going though.
Good luck with everything, I wish that s--- works out for you again very soon.
Keep your head up

 

May 17, 2015

@Stew

 

May 17, 2015

Hope things improve for ya man, I've been struggling lately too.

I had something similar to what you mentioned at the end, I had basically all the signs for diabetes so they ran the tests and my blood sugar was fine, so I don't have it. I'm glad I don't have it obviously but still have way less energy than I used to and get fatigued pretty easily, so it sucks not knowing what's wrong. Even when I work out or something I can just tell I have less strength than I did even a month or 2 ago. It sucks cuz I definitely feel something's wrong physically but I (and the doctors) have no idea what.

As tough as life can get, I've found that your mind set is very important in those situations. Gotta stay as positive as possible even if things aren't working out. Not to sound cheesy but being overly negative just doesn't help anything and will put you in a bigger hole. Be realistic but positive at the same time.

 

May 17, 2015

well, u tried