Aug 2, 2015 @Purspective and I have come together to create an EP entitled 'Rapture', which explains a true story of addiction. This project also counts as Chapter II in my continuous project. Stream & Download Here: SoundCloud Stream: Lyrics: Wonderful Spoiler Inadequacy battles, Seemingly everlasting, Cause the past don't disappear like he want it to, Tried drowning it 1 or 2 times in liquor pools, Buried it deep in the snow, Far away from unruly thoughts, But they came back around again, Like an angel he found a friend, And he moving through space, On a roller coaster, Playing pretend, Tingling spines, jiggling fingertips, Remembers it well, Anti recipritory h---, He lives for it f--- Busted up and in cuffs, Sat his trust, After bouts of depressive, Intensive soul searchin', Relentlessly without confidence, The obvious response he get, "You ain't nothin", So sombreness kick in, At 11 o clock every night, Heaven would stop, The coaster caught, Deep in a dip, Secretive emotion in motion, Never tell, Just say goodnight and suffer in silence, With a f---ing smile on his face... Lately, it's fading away, Lately, in tune with the pain, Lately, inside of his brain, And lately, That is where he spending every second of every day, Now it's getting hard for him to articulate statements, That high school feeling when he did hear that girl say this... Seen her parlay with, A friend of his, O-K, He's seen this before, There's nothing new on the porch, Just repetition of less than optimal incidence, Yet he talk to himself on the regular, I should be, The friend that is deserved, But I'm selfish, I can't help it, And that's one h--- of an excuse, And I'm guilty, Cause I hate having these feelings, When I'm pacing in my glass house, No ceilings, playin' RCHP, The darkness, One screen, Like iTunes open, that's one window, Facebook open, The moon shines so very bright, Pissed at that window pain, So I hide out, shut the blinds, Bla-Dow, Busta rhyme in my notebook, See therein it lies the confidence I want so badly, Yeah me's Good at playing characters, Why you even asking? Man of course I'm happy... Bloodstream Spoiler (Hook) Drip Drop, An I chase her up with the straw, Criss Cross, how I cut my life with a saw, Influence/ Gimme jet fuel, Now and I lift off, Watch me, watch me, Watch me lift off To the ground, In the couch, Eyes closed, People doubt my love, For you, Say you ain't lovin' me, But I'm here now my love, I ain't hearin' no sound my love, But the crackles, and pops, Huffs and Puffs, And pins and needle, Heart pound my love, Heart pound, in my brain my love, And I get sick, when you're not around, Feeling down, But it's not the right kind, My love, High my love, Used to call girlie girlie white white my love, Now it's brown, my love, Countdown my love, Till I pick you up, Know you with that, Drip Drop, Chase her with a straw, Quarter ounce, In the mason jar, I can feel it in my bloodstream, Bloodstream, Bloodstream, I can feel it in my bloodstream, Bloodstream, Bloodstream, Yooo (Hook) Drip Drop, An I chase her up with the straw, Criss Cross, how I cut my life with a saw, Influence/ Gimme jet fuel, Now and I lift off, Watch me, watch me, Watch me lift off Pissed off, At a sick loss for words, I'm f----- up, Girlie, you f-----, Girlie you f--- me up, We gon' be all high, Pass out, still all high Wake up, it's alright, Got my pipe, Live a rasta life, With you, But you ain't lovin me, Gimme pain in my stomach, Aye but I love it, She? Ain't s---. Sobriety's a b----, Annihilate, that feeling, Violate, my psyche, Reeling, from the pain, But it's worth it, f--- what they say, They don't know you, Like I know you, All in my vein, You destroy me, I deploy the, Biggest f--- yourself, You annoying us (Hook) Drip Drop, An I chase her up with the straw, Criss Cross, how I cut my life with a saw, Influence/ Gimme jet fuel, Now and I lift off, Watch me, watch me, Watch me lift off (x2) Prima-Donna Spoiler d---, it's been a minute, Been a while, Since that feeling hit my stomach, f--- the ache, nah, I'm feeling great, yah, Party gettin' started and I'm feeling myself, Healing myself, She kept me down, you bring me up, I never did give a f---, When I was round you, Rehabilitation couldn't keep me from you, Vehement, Mary inhalation, Kept me thinking of you, Dank, gateway, keep me comin', back... Do I really tho? Back for more, back is sore, Treat me good, for like a week, If I'm lucky, Then you go on, and turnin' on me, Turnin' all my friends against me, Takin' all my f---in' money, Make me wonder, What the intention of you existing my life is, Priceless? Left my a--- lifeless, How many time? It's, Not that I don't wanna stay, I just don't think I can, wait another second, For these thing to change, magically, It's not gonna happen, I f---in' get it, f--- it, maybe rehabilitation, Isn't such a bad option, Oh now you scared and s---? You gonna call the dealer that I fronted so we can be together, then go ahead, b----, I f---in' hate you anyway Pickin' up you was a big mistake, I shoulda left you in that pill bottle, Back at my homies place, MDMA. I think I need help, I think I need help, I gotta, Do it myself, cause everyone else? Goner. f--- it, I'm ready to head up outta this, Vendetta, is what I'm gonna get, Attackin' me, after my father? Addiction, you lose, f--- up outta, My face, but you never leave do you, Prima-Donna Home Spoiler Home, I gotta go home, Get home, I gotta go home, Go home, when I get there, I'mma have me some explaining to do, Been rainin' a minute, I need me some clothing, Or maybe a smoke an' a doob, One after the other, if not that in that order, I gives a f---, man I'm cool, Just, gimme a place to sleep, Maybe taste of weed, At least, and I'll be on my own way, f--- it, sleep on the turf, Sweatin out buckets, Me? I'm a nerd, spending up duckets, Me, with a girl? Nah, I'm a druggie, buddy Give a f--- about an opinion of doubter, Any muthafuckin way, when ya livin' a haze, Shi' cray, day by day, Get crazier, get paid, pay debt, front more, Now the lump sum, bigger than it was, So I'm jackin' up a Honda, Civic, in the city, Hoping for a GPS, or a 3DS, DVD player, yes, f---in' found one, Need cash, to parlay with those ones, Had one, for free, but I f----- up, Had one, that made me a hero, Shoulda known I was still never gonna win, From heroin, to villain quick, Had one that turned up, No questions, till the next day, Till I had, no paper left, Used, abused, left for dead, Like a zombie, walking these streets? I run through 'em, tryna get, home, I must do it, gotta get, home, Where the heart lives, where the heart aches, See my folks broken up now, so, even if I go home, s--- gon' be f----- up, Dad drunk, and my mom left, oh f---, Only answer? Develop a habit, Dumb, a--- kid, with a h--- of a logic, Addiction begets addiction, Stop it, take it back, to when, you was, That kid in the pocket, Spit rap, like a gun, kick back, and I c--- it, No? What the f--- happened, I was rockin', back and forth, Bumping that worldwide choppers, Then life got harder, the weed got harder, The weed, turned into the devil's daughter, Caught up in a web of illicit, product, But I love them, I miss it, kinda, but I, um, Kinda miss my father, And I, um, Kinda miss my ability, to talk to him, But I really don't think that he give a f---, He be gone like me, On one like me, drunk like me, Puke on the white tee, you see the writing on the wall, Need help, rehab, in all black tar The Office Spoiler Doors open, aroma, cuppa joe? Snow on the door hinge, fall to the floor, Door close, provin' time, doobie on my mind, I'mma fight through it, f--- it I'm the youngest one in this room, Well aware that I'm livin' my 20's too soon, Hello there, point me to the nearest therapist, I got some issues that I can't remember, and, I think I need me some help, With the devilish, palpable tension, f---in' with, serenity, in my brain, Welcome to the path of freedom, just sign here, And I'll take you up to meet him, Now? YEAH. Aight Doc, See I got me some problem lately, My rents f---in' stay, split, stay together for another month, Split, again, f--- it, I'm a mess, Had a girl, see she used to date another friend, Left him, did the same to me for another friend, Now I got enemies, giving me energy, s--- I found 3 more girls, M, H, Sobriety, Latter been hard for me to keep, that is why I'm in yo office, see, Doc it's a problem I cannot keep, I got me a secret, See, I can spit hard as the next, MC, Hereditary, Addiction cannot be my downfall, Groundhog Day, everyday, Don't placate, gimme the real, I need a way way way, harsh, wake up call. "Huh, I see, Well, it seems you have an impulsive attitude, And, I think you just referred to drugs as females, so... um... We're gonna prescribe you methadone and keep you in a room with other addicts for like 90 days... We good here?"
Aug 2, 2015 Unfortunately... no. But you're not ready for this project, it's honestly some of the best work that I've release. Especially with @Purspective's incredible storytelling and lyricism.
